i like to think of myself as a pretty spontaneous, carefree person. i've been called effervescent (you know who you are) many-a-times. i prefer to not get too wrapped up in future plans, opting to live my life as it comes, taking on the small daily battles as they come.
but today, i feel tired, rundown, unsure of myself. i wonder how long i will stay in korea, wonder if i will stay at my current job for a few years or opt to find a uni position after a couple. or will i go to a different country? or say goodbye to the world of teaching and go to grad school? and if that is the case, then what will i go for? journalism? mba? econ?
god, i hate myself right now. i hate the annoying analytical voice in my head, screaming 'plan plan plan!' this is the time when i wish i had a bathtub in my apartment, not just an all-in-one bathroom.
i live my life in the pursuit of happiness and fun.
this is a bloody funk. it will pass.
the end.
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