on a clear day, ill fly home to you

i went out with some old students tonight.  we had japanese fusion and drank lots of sake and red wine.  by the time the other teachers met up with us, i was three quarters of the way into the bag, and quickly opted to take my drunken self home.  

i wondered what it would be like to fall asleep on the bus, waking up at the end of the line, lost, confused, angry.  

i made it a point to stay away until i heard the 'hansungdae, samsung-geo' called as the next stop.  i forced my tired bones to get up, passing my subway card on the bus scanner.  i walked home in a stupor.  as i waited to cross the street by the olivia lauren store that i use as a land-marker to find my way, i saw cars racing by, people coming and going, a bit of chaos.  and i began to wonder what the point of it all really is.  i thought, 'perhaps this really is hell on earth, that we must go through this strange game of life in order to get somewhere else.'  (this is coming from an agnostic/atheist contemplative chick...i'm talking about hell?  what?) 

but then again, i am a bit drunk.

maybe half in the bag as i write this.

the air was brisk and the walk seemed to take forever, but as i passed through my gate, i looked into the night sky and up at the moon.  a full moon was hidden behind some very sheer clouds.  i stopped and looked up, knowing very well that my landlord would truly believe i was the crazy foreigner he was renting to if he saw me 'worshipping' the moon.  it was really beautiful, though, making me think that maybe this life isn't all that bad.  amid all the chaos and insanity lies opportunity and beauty, allowing us to turn our lives into whatever we so please.  the only limit on what we do in life is our creative ability.  if you can dream it, you can do it.  so cliche, yet so incredibly true.

and now it is time for bed.

woohoo six hours of saturday classes.

i love my job.

i love my job.

i love my job.

i love level ones.

i love level ones.

i love level ones.

i love level ones.

i love level ones.