i feel defeated. im tired. i had a bad day. not a bad day in the sense that something really bad happened, but just kinda blah. i have upper level students this month, which is a big change from the low levels. im not used to being able to just talking with students and now i feel unprepared and don't know what to talk to my students about. and when i think they know what im talking about, they stare at me blankly, much like the level ones. i felt like i would throw up for most of the day, so im not quite sure what is going on with my body. i haven't been able to eat normal food for close to a week. at least three weeks of overtime til i get a couple days off.
and im feeling a bit lonesome. im surrounded by students and coworkers while im at school, and i really love a lot of them. but its not the same as being with those whom you really know and love, and whom really know and love you. it's hard to move across the world and feel one hundred percent all the time. so i let myself be blue for awhile. and then i go to sleep, knowing that it can only go up from here.
that certainly was the case with my stomach, although it appears that my stomach situation is plateauing.
blah blah i hate when i get all melancholic.
fatigue makes cowards of us all.
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