as of late, ive had a lot on my mind. where to go next, what to do, how to feel about leaving korea, leaving friends, leaving the life that ive made my own this past year. i've been stressed. i've been running about, packing, tearing my apartment apart, shopping for christmas presents, blah blah blah. i've been a crazy, relatively neurotic woman.
i got home tonight, pissed off, tired, irritated.
i forced myself to go to the gym. i forced myself to listen to crazy loud fast music and sweat out my stress. after 40 minutes on the stair machine (eek), i opted for a nice walk to cool down. i was flipping through some 90s classics i just downloaded, switching between some biggie and britney.
i finished my walk and opted to switch from biggie to mr. big. it got me thinking more, of course, as pretty much every song from my past reminds me of something and brings back a flood of memories.
i went in the locker room, put on my uggs, and headed out the door. a lovely ajouma waited while i put on my boots, holding the locker room door open. 'kamsa hamnida' i said in my best korean pronunciation. she smiled and we had a moment. i've been having many moments at my gym as of late. i dont think ive ever seen this woman before, but she made me smile a very much needed smile.
mr. big ended and my ipod fell silent. but then i heard it again. 'i'm the one who wants to be with you...' um, wtf i thought. i pulled out my earbud. it was playing in the gym. it had probably started about 60 seconds after my version of it began. what are the odds? was it just a random coincidence? does this mean something?
who knows. but it certainly made me smile. it made me give a little wink to the higher power that seems to be having a jolly time pulling on my puppet strings nowadays.
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